Week One of Chemo Done!

We made it through our first week of chemo. The next two weeks are mainly to rest and recuperate. Mike does continue to get one of the medications (Bleomycin) every Monday, but other than that he'll be home. He will also do some lab work on Monday, I'm not sure when we will get results but you can pray that his tumor markers are responding to treatment. We will do four of these cycles altogether; 1 down, 3 to go.

Today was exhausting. It was just one of those days with the kids where they all needed extra TLC. The 4 year old is emotional and testing boundaries, the two year old is strong willed and over tired, the baby just would not nap easily and seems to be fussy with teething. By dinner time I could hardly keep my eyes open so Mike and I both crashed on the couch and the boys cuddled up and watched a show. Even though we were tired it just felt good to be close and be together. 

Thankfully we have a babysitter who comes every Friday ( usually we go for a date, but Mike opted for sleep tonight.) Evonne helped me get the kids to bed and I went to bootcamp!  Ahhh, I feel so much better - great stress release.

I had many moments today where I felt weary realizing that the rest of my maternity leave is going to be spent fighting cancer. It's a long time to see Mike feeling so tired and sick. In those moments I find myself needing to give my burden to God because it is too heavy for me. I've read this verse so many times over the years and often I've struggled to give my burdens to God. But right now I can honestly say that if I hang on to the full weight of battling cancer with my life partner, it will crush me. So it has been a lot easier than I thought to just give my burden to God.

Jesus said "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."  Matthew 11:28-30